Transparency Saves
Hello again loves! Hope you’ve been well.
I’ll be honest, I’ve been existing and trying push through. I feel like I’ve always been pretty open with y’all, but I still hide parts of my story. I’ve decided that I want to try and be as transparent as possible.
People will often say, “Everything isn’t for everyone”.. while I do believe that’s true, I also believe that we owe it to one another to be translucent because our testimony can turn into someone else’s guidebook.
We’re ALL struggling with something. Life is hard as hell for most of us! But we usually just put on a brave face and soldier through each day. Yes, we should continue to push forward but we shouldn’t have to always hide or be ashamed of our pain/struggles.
So on that note.. Hi, my name is Asya.. I have battled depression on and off for the past 10years and as a result of multiple miscarriages/infertility struggles, through therapy I’ve learned that I also deal with PTSD. Right now, I’m just trying to give myself all the love that I tend to give out to everyone else. It’s a lot of peaks and valleys, but I’m taking each day as it comes.
Here are some things I’m currently doing to pour into me:
Buying myself flowers weekly. My mother has always had a living room full of plants, but I haven’t perfected my green thumb yet, so having colorful flowers in my room brightens each morning.
Being firm with my boundaries. This means saying “no” and sticking with it… Not answering the phone or calling people back when I don’t have the energy to talk… understanding that I don’t need to explain my “no”.
Limiting my social media. This is an important one for me. Seeing people that are pregnant can trigger me at times (especially when they have children already). So I changed my settings on my phone to limit the amount of time I am on my apps.
Getting outside. Fresh air really does help you mentally. I try to go for a walk daily, but if the weather isn’t that great I’ll just go for a drive to the store or the beach.
Focusing on my personal goals. I spent so many years taking care of others that I forgot about me. Learning to prioritize myself without feeling guilty has been a challenge, but I’m working on it!
I’m trying. Trying to do better, be better, and feel better. By pouring into me, I have discovered my voice again. I’ve found myself smiling more. I’m truly happy with the woman I’m growing into. Yes, when the bad days come, they are BAD… but I have an amazing therapist, loving parents, and a few close friends who pour into me when my well runs dry on those days.
So here’s to my testimony becoming a guidebook for someone else. We’ve got this!
I hope you all find the peace that you desire 🫶🏽 but in the meantime, find at least one thing to bring you hope/happiness in each day.
Until next time; Be YOU. Do YOU. LOVE YOU 💜
