Back To Me

[Original post 9.6.2019]

Hey guys..

I know, it's been a LONG time. So much has happened. There's so much I could say...but I'll try to keep it simple (this may be a little lengthy though so bear with me).

If you read my previous posts, you know I lost my baby. Well guys, it led me into a depression. So here I am, exactly 7 months & 4 days after one of worst days of my life, laying in bed writing this.

I was so scared to write through all of this. So I didn't. I was scared that someone I know would read this & judge me. Scared that I'd sound crazy. Scared to deal with everything that would come next.. so what comes next? I'll tell you.

Next is this: therapy & LOTS of healing. I made a decision to seek a therapist. I had my first session last week and truthfully I felt better just walking into the building. Along with therapy, going back to church consistently. For some reason I always feel like I'm being a burden to God when I go to Him with my problems because there are people that are much worse off compared to me. I have to accept that the God I serve loves us all much more than I could know.

As a part of my healing, I've made a commitment to myself that I will blog weekly. Even if there are tears in my eyes, or I'm so exhausted from work, I will document my weaknesses, which will in turn grow to be my strengths.

So there you have it: I'm depressed. I'm in therapy. I'm broken-hearted. But I'm here. I'm breathing. I'm healing.

Maybe I'll feel inspired to write more tonight & maybe I won't. But until next time, whenever that may be.

Until next time; Be You. Do You. LOVE YOU 💜